Strange how it's been more than a year since I've last written a journal entry. It's even stranger how I look back through my journals and see how far I've matured. So far, I'm slightly ashamed of my time being wasted on such meaningless teenage nonsense. It happens to the best of us, I suppose. But still, I'm kinda glad I've gone through my experiences and to have been able to learn from what I had done. I was able to finally open my eyes and realize what I had been doing.

Hah, kinda sounds like one of those people who claimed to have 'found god'. In a way, yeah...you could put it that way. But the 'god' I worship is...dun dun duuuun, me. My very existence, my consciousness...my connection to Mother Nature and everything else. Inside and out. The collective mind. Yeah, to a regular person, it may sound strange, but it's what pretty much every religion preaches, isn't it? Descendants of gods, of the stars.

Perhaps this new way of thinking is due to the help of Mother Nature herself...and of course the family of friends I've circled myself with. I love them all so very deeply. The conversations and rants we can get into are the most intense I've EVER experienced. To analyze everything from the news, to nature, to sex (yes, we're able to talk comfortably about the most uncomfortable topics of conversation. twisted, aren't we? -sarcasm-), and so on.

I've been able to surround myself completely in nature recently now that it's Spring, and I'm able to be the Earthy Taurus that I am. You just have to know how to walk on the earth. And I owe it all to the loves of my life. I love you guys.